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Pig Iron said:
The guests suck..but it's August 13-15...

I'm quitting my job on July 30 and don't start school until Aug 23...

Can I be the Guest of Honor? Unless Batwoman decides to show her lovely face of course...



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Rue de Nocturne said:
I tried to come in here and help you blind people. I tried to woo you away from the path of the Natureboys. You're too far gone and apparently living in denial. A few of the Oldies swoop in and everyone teams up with them against me. I'm not here to be made fun of. I'm serious. this could be very harmful to you. Not here, but in your daily lives.

Get away while you can. It took me over two years to change completely. I admired Franta for a long time. He'd say charming stuff. Well, really funny stuff. And then he talked about his problems at home ( not all the time). But every once in a while he'd let me in. I'm a very heterosexual man. And I knew franta was too. But all the innuendo. I'm not breaking down. I'm serious. you don't understand how not seeing people's faces can change you. Your perceptions. When you just see someone's words they seem to mean more. They let you see people in a different light. I started to think of Franta as a friend. I know that's stupid as we only chatted online, and well sometimes he ignored me completely. But when he stopped being such a "Natureboy"-when he started to talk to people, and me, like a human- it was , well it was too much. His softer side came out. He talked about his work and his cooking (I always wanted those caramel brownies by the way). I thought about his heart and how I

I'm now changed. I grew. And all you 4th or 5th generations can too. The longer you stay around. Whether "they" accept you or not it's irrelevant. You'll learn to like them and you get used to Franta or Theory9 or whoever. You see them posting in a wily way, you'll follow them (maybe even vice versa) and then they calm down and show you their human side and they draw you in. When you see someone acting like a buffoon and then you see them for who they really are. It traps you-it's like a revelation.

I can't explain the power. Their magnetic charm. A night here, a night there. They'll pay attention to you. And then you start waiting, and waiting, and when they come back. Well, you feel like your the only person on earth. When he talked to me I felt liked, I felt important, I felt entrusted. Life's little problems, the daily monotony of it all-it was meaningless. I believed I had a friend, but I knew you didn't consider me as such when you didn't invite me. When you didn't trust me to come to that first con. I knew you didn't care. Not even as a friend. Not even as an acquantance. I was so close to being one, so close to being near you. But you shut me out. But not really. We were never that close, and that's what I mean. You get blinded into believing that somehow you mean something.

I tried to come in here and be a beacon of light. I failed I know it. Please learn from my lesson though. Keep your sense about you. Don't find yourself waiting for those replies. That attention. You know what I mean. I know you do. Maybe not with franta, but with someone else. Maybe It's Nowhereman (I knew you by the way, I just tried to avoid you. You offended me once), maybe it's mxy, maybe it's dave or the good doctor. I missed myself, who I was before. Before the natureboys.

I'm being honest. I'm anonymous I know so I can do it. But ya know, the really shameful part is that franta still doesn't remember me. Even if I told him my real name. He'd probably just give a vague , manly "oh, yeah". Listen, just don't fall into the trap. The more you emulate means the more you'll change. When your girlfriend tells you that she love's you, please don't say "it's true". When you start doing stupid stuff like that you'll know.

I'm now myself again. It took a while, and a few girlfriends. I'm functional again. I used to think of you as a God among idiots. Now I think of you as just "Franta". Ya know, I think it happened to Speedy too. That was his problem. I don't know who got to him, but one of you did. He changed too. He outgrew you I think. The only thing I regret is that I never got to taste those brownies. I never got a care package. Just that carefree attitude. That natureboy attitude.

I'm free, but I come in here and I see distant memories of times I thought were gone. But nothings changed. I still see a heartbreak waiting to happen. My heart ripe to be broken again. Your hearts.

It's that attitude the mannerisms. I see it in Uschi. all joking and playing- then a little serious and I second guess. Is she paying attention to me? She's a heartbreaker boys watch out for her. She's a deadly weapon. Smart, sharp and beautiful all rolled into one package.

I won't start down that path again though. Remember I warned you. One day you'll catch yourself, and you'll say "Rue, was right".


And that's terrible.