so, oi i found out tonight that my new aunt of two months is pregnant. i suspected that before they got married that she was, but im not saying anything. i dunno why but it bothers me. i mean i think its way to soon if she wasnt before, even if it just happened, i still think the same. i mean i dont think it was planned but who knows. my uncle really wants kids. so i dunno, but im keeping quite.
i should be happy and i am to a point. after that im just annoyed. not quite angry but definitely not completely happy.
boo says its because shes around my age and where she is, is where i was planning on being. i guess thats partly it. it hit me hard that me and my aunt werent planning our weddings together. it didnt matter that she was gonna get married before me anyway it was just the fact that im not planning my wedding any more.
boo says, he knows in his heart that im the one hes gonna marry and i agree, but he says hes not ready yet and he wasnt planning on it until his 30s.... hes 23....
i dunno, that doesnt bother me either. so i dunno what it is. all i know is im annoyed and depressed.
i did dye my hair red for the season. i usually do this time of the year. it turned out brighter than normal but its awsome.
